The Wisdom of God
** This is written as part of the series 30 for 30: Reflections on Life at My 30th Birthday **
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It may sound overly self-deprecating, but if I'm being entirely honest I'll tell you that I'm not that smart. Really, truly. Time and time again I have thought life situations through, made plans, budgeted, strategized, plotted... only to see my plans go up in smoke.
My foolishness is not limited to planning. How about praying? As I look back over my life I'm utterly horrified to think of some of the things I have actually prayed for. In retrospect, I simply cannot believe some of the things that I really thought it would be a good idea to ask God to give me. Hindsight being what it is, I can see how many of my requests that I brought to God were totally foolish.
Sometimes the things I have wanted were silly. Other times they were evil. Sometimes I was honestly misled and disillusioned. Other times I think I knew subconsciously that what I wanted was wrong, but still wanted it bad enough that I thought maybe if I prayed, God could figure out a way to give it to me in a way that would be good. Whether I realized it in the moment or not, that's dumb.
Sometimes God has given me the foolish things I sought; other times not. Sometimes this has been his discipline; other times it has been his gracious condescending benevolence overcoming my near-sighted selfishness.
As I look back now over all my life and all the things God has given and all the things God has withheld, the only thought I'm left with is this: he is wise, I am not. He acts for a purpose, and his ways are good. In all the dispensations of his providence in my life, no matter how they felt in the moment, I have always consistently seen his wisdom. My wife, my kids, my sin, my growth, my church, my house, my van, my family, the divorce of my parents, the weather: in everything I have seen his wisdom. His thoughts are not mine; I don't know them ahead of time, and often I don't know them in retrospect, but what I do know is that what I see is wisdom.
Of course, I'm thankful for that because it highlights the gospel for me again. Who would think of honour through shame? Who would imagine a king who is exalted to his throne by way of a cross? Who could fathom the one sinned against becoming the sin so that the sinner might become the righteousness of God? Who could look ahead, declaring the end from the beginning, announcing the victory of Jesus at very moment of humanity's fall? Who could use rebellious enemies to accomplish his perfect plan? Who would send his Son to die so that he might redeem from death his now adopted sons & daughters?
His ways are not my ways, and his thoughts are not my thoughts. I've seen this in my life; I've seen it in the gospel. Now I pray that if God gives me another 30 years on this planet, that I would live like I believe he is wise. I pray that he would give me grace to not lean on my own understanding, but to acknowledge him in all my ways, believing that he will make my paths straight. I cannot understand him, this I know; but I can trust him, because I know he is wise.
Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgements and how inscrutable his ways!
“For who has known the mind of the Lord, or who has been his counsellor?”
“Or who has given a gift to him that he might be repaid?”For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. Amen. (Rom 11.33-36, ESV)
Tim Challies’ Admonition to Toronto Pastors
Yesterday was the March meeting of the Toronto Pastors Fellowship--and it was a blessing!
Friend and fellow church-member, Tim Challies, brought the charge, 'Pastor, Train Your People to Think Biblically!' The audio and text are now both available online. Click here to check out the paper and the mp3.
Here's an excerpt:
I think we ought to pause to draw out this point just a little bit. One of the areas where discernment most often goes awry is in this area of speaking truth with love. Those who emphasize discernment are typically able to voice the truth; it is love that is far too often lacking. Many ministers, and perhaps even you, can testify to the damage done to churches in the name of discernment. Just recently pastor James MacDonald wrote that he has seen more damage done to the church by Christians with the gift of discernment than by anyone else. Many ministers have erred themselves in this regard, emphasizing truth at the expense of love. It is here that we should remember the Bible’s injunctions to remain childlike. We can go back to 1 Corinthians 14:20 and see Paul’s exhortation to “Be infants in evil, but in your thinking be mature.” When it comes to what is evil, we need to remain as little children, being innocent toward all evil things. Too many people who emphasize discernment spend inordinate amounts of time seeking out evil, dwelling upon evil, all in the name of refuting it. There is great danger in filling our hearts and lives with what is evil. So as you train your church in discernment, do so in a way that encourages and edifies rather than in a way that tears down and destroys.
Proverbs 18 and Your Tongue
Last night at GFC we read the Scriptures publicly (like we aim to do at all our meetings). We've been reading through the book of Proverbs one chapter at a time at our prayer meetings. This week we found ourselves in Proverbs 18.
When Stacey and I got home we spent some time looking at a few of these proverbs again. I was really challenged to think about the tongue again. The Scriptures pull no punches when making statements about how we speak, how it affects others, how it reflects our heart, and how we will be held accountable for our words.
Here's a little collection of proverbs (just from Proverbs 18) on the tongue. Note both the negative and the positive results you can reap from simply speaking. I hope it helps you to carefully consider how to use your tongue today.
- A fool takes no pleasure in understanding, but only in expressing his opinion.
- The words of a man's mouth are deep waters; the fountain of wisdom is a bubbling brook.
- A fool's lips walk into a fight, and his mouth invites a beating.
- A fool's mouth is his ruin, and his lips are a snare to his soul.
- The words of a whisperer are like delicious morsels; they go down into the inner parts of the body.
- If one gives an answer before he hears, it is his folly and shame.
- An intelligent heart acquires knowledge, and the ear of the wise seeks knowledge.
- The one who states his case first seems right, until the other comes and examines him.
- A brother offended is more unyielding than a strong city, and quarrelling is like the bars of a castle.
- From the fruit of a man's mouth his stomach is satisfied; he is satisfied by the yield of his lips.
- Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.
- The poor use entreaties, but the rich answer roughly.
Ants in the Kitchen
This morning I saw ants in the kitchen. I won't say where... but it wasn't it my home (thankfully!). My first thought, naturally, was disgust and repulsion. I saw them crawling all over a little section near the back of the counter and shuddered. I can't stand when ants get inside.
Since there appeared to be no Raid around, I decided to ignore them. Besides, they weren't near the coffee mug I had brought in to wash in the sink, so they shouldn't really bother me. But then, when I started to wash my mug, I looked down and there was one of those little pests, crawling around in the sink! Without a second thought I filled my mug with water and sent that ant a-swimming down the drain.
About 10 seconds later another thought hit me. Proverbs 6.6-8 says this:
Go to the ant, O sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise.
Without having any chief, officer, or ruler,
she prepares her bread in summer and gathers her food in harvest.
I remembered that and began to think this: How hard must it have been for those ants to get in here? I'm sure they've worked really hard for a long time to get where they are! And who told them to? No one, of course. They have no leader, no boss, but they are wise and work hard as long as they can, for the sake of the cause.
But here's the thing: What is it really worth? If an ant is found in the wrong place at the wrong time he gets trapped, sprayed, poisoned, or washed down a sink. He loses everything... for the sake of gaining pretty much nothing. But for his cause, he was willing to work--and to work hard, at that!
That was a good reminder for me this morning to get going with the day's work. How much more do I have to work for! I actually have a Master who will call me to account. And unlike the ant kingdom, the kingdom of Christ really is worth dying for.
How much more shameful, then, if one of those little ants out-works me today...