Freed to live through the death of another.

It’s a Strange Thing Being a Pastor

Being a pastor is a strange thing.

We proclaim a message with the power of God to change people, but we can’t even change ourselves. We call others to perfection, as Jesus did, but our lives are full of imperfection. We must shepherd like the Shepherd though we’re just one of the sheep.

We seek to make Christ increase (though he’s invisible to human eyes) as we seek to decrease (though we stand in plain view week-by-week). We say numbers don’t matter, but long for many to be saved. We labour to grow the church, even though we realize each soul increases our accountability before God.

We try to express the Infinite and Eternal in 45 minutes or less; obviously we fail, so we try again next week.

We spend our lives studying a book that we’ll never fully grasp and we labour to explain it to a people who can’t understand apart from the work of a third party. The more we study, the more certain we become of the wisdom of God and our own foolishness; and yet we must preach on.

We are told that not many should be teachers and that there will be stricter judgement for those who are, and yet, we cannot fight off the compulsion to preach. We call people to something they can’t do, with an authority that is not our own, and then at the end of our lives we give an account to God for the souls we pastored.

We are called to toil in the word of God and in prayer; yet there is nothing our enemy opposes more actively. We work to build a community where people are connected, while occupying an office filled with temptations to isolation.

We preach a gospel of joy, but preachers are hard pressed with temptations to depression.

We must preach with passion but pastor with patience. We must be gentle with the sheep and fierce with the wolves. And we must somehow discern the difference.

We must plead with people to repent and believe all the while knowing that it is God who must save. We plead with God in prayer until our wills align with his. We must earnestly seek the presence of the Spirit, knowing full well that he moves where he pleases.

We must labour with all of our strength but never, ever trust it. We are paid to satisfactorily do a job that never ends: When have I studied enough? When have I prayed enough? When have I mentored enough? When have I counselled enough? We who are never finished are called to lead others to rest in the finished work of Jesus.

Ultimately we labour and long for results that we can never achieve. Being a pastor is a lifelong journey to a place of utter dependence.

This is strange work, being a pastor. But I wouldn’t trade it for the world.


  1. Dining In Paradise

    This is so very well put. Thank you for putting into words what so many of us pastors feel. I am both humbled and encouraged by this post!
    – Bryn

    • Julian


      Thanks so much for the encouraging words, brother. I feel in so many ways like I'm just beginning to have my eyes opened up to so much of this. I just thank God that the communion with him only grows deeper as the demands grow larger.

  2. Brooks

    Great word.

    • Julian

      Thanks, Keith!

  3. Peter Walters

    Thanks for the post. I think you did a great job of putting into words the tension we all live with everyday. An imperfect person preaching about the One who is Perfect. How's that for a job description?

  4. Matthew

    Strangely encouraging! Thank you much.

    • Julian

      Haha, thanks Matthew! I'm glad it encouraged you, brother!

  5. Julian

    That's it, Peter!

  6. Brenna

    Thank you for helping me to see my pastor (and friends who are pastors) through new eyes. I feel like I know how to love & encourage them more now.

    • Julian

      Thanks, Brenna! That's great. Prayer and encouragement go a long way to helping your pastor serve you better.

  7. jefflyle

    What an encouraging post. I've thought at times that I was imagining the human futility of pastoring while remaining utterly committed to an unending, impossible calling. I'm glad the insanity is hereby deemed to be sanctified!

  8. Sean Crowe

    Thanks Julian, for putting into words what has been rolling around in my mind these past few years.

  9. Brandon

    I'll echo others here. Thanks much.

  10. Ric Martinez

    Thank you brother, not only encouraging, but but also thought provoking, humbling and many other adjectives that come to mind. Again well done and well said. -Encouraged in Texas- Ric

  11. Theo Lodder

    Thanks, Julian. So true.

  12. Carey

    Great ponderings… the contrasts are intriguing, in your post and in my own life as a Pastor. The clear "opposites" you describe humble my soul anew. Thanks

  13. David Posey

    It never felt so right to be in so far over my head…..shalom

    • Julian


  14. Omar Soto

    Thanking God for the CHRIST that lives in you!

    • Julian

      Thanks, Omar!

  15. Hank


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