It’s hard to know sometimes what to blog about when there are so many different things going on in life. Here’s a few things I’ve been thinking about.
I’ve thought about this on this blog before, but I was blessed with the opportunity to teach on it recently at a men’s meeting at our church. The more I look into my heart, the more it seems the Lord is pleased to reveal to me the hideousness of my own pride-filled, arrogant heart. You can download the pdf of the handout and application questions I gave to the guys here, if you like.
Letting Others Serve
It’s a funny thing, but you’d think that not wanting others to serve you would be a sign of humility. As I’ve been noticing in my own heart lately, though, it’s more a sign of pride. Why don’t I want others to help? For one thing, because I don’t want anyone to think I need help. CJ says part of pride is refusing to acknowledge our absolute dependence on God. I like to think I’m self-sufficient. That’s pride.
Another thing I’ve been confronted with a few times now is other people wanting to take over jobs for me, since I’ve become an elder at church. They want to employ biblical wisdom and free their elders up from other tasks so that we can focus on the word and prayer. But I don’t want to give these things up. Why? Because somewhere in my heart I feel like I do a good job at what I do and if someone else were to do it, they wouldn’t do it just the way I like it. Well that’s a load of hoogly. Just because something’s the way I like it doesn’t mean it’s best. And in reality, they’d probably do it way better than me anyway! What’s best for the kingdom is me moving aside and letting others serve.
Leadership Can Be Nerve-Wracking
We’re in what’s probably the busiest time of year for the leadership of GFC–annual meeting time. We’re looking at numbers, praying through plans, and discussing endless possibilities for future directions. This is my first year as an elder working through these things. Whenever I begin to think that any of these things–and therefore the welfare of the church–depends on us, as humans, I get stressed, worried, and fretful. This has been a good exercise for me in learning to pray things through, and trust Christ to build his church. I am learning (painfully slowly, but learning nonetheless) to trust in the Spirit to give wisdom. I am learning to trust the Father’s providence. He has given us much responsibility, and we will be held accountable for our leadership, but the worst mistake we can make is thinking that it all depends on us and our wisdom, and then forge ahead un-prayerfully.